Ah, life lately. I haven't been great about prioritizing. A bunch of things I said "yes" to a while back all came to a head recently. FIVE straight nights and days of social commitments and work events, compounded now with a short-notice business trip and finals week for a class I haven't been so great at. Don't get me wrong, I loved the time I spent with my friends and coworkers and participating in some amazing projects. It made me realize how lucky I am to be living this exhaustingly great life. Even though every morning I'm like this:
But in the end, it resulted in two days of me feeling pretty terrible. I felt body aches, chills, congestion, and overall pain. Like a full-blown flu, over a weekend. I spent so much time trying to do it all, it landed me flat out on my back. I'm happy it was over the weekend so I could recover, but unhappy I didn't accomplish everything I'd planned.
I feel like the biggest challenge has been to balance work plus grad school, then be intentional from there about what I can really take on. For example, I've stepped back from a couple of volunteer gigs to focus on my favorite, DAR. I've joined a fantastic book club full of badass babes, but we only meet once a month and the books are always easy reads. I try to see my friends enough to stay close, and they're always informed enough to know I'm not blowing them off. Dan and I spend more quality time just being at home, instead of going out.
Basically, I'm a hot mess, trying to get it under control. I don't feel like being busy is an excuse, because it's really just about prioritizing better. I want to sew more, write more, read more, travel more, but it's just not in the cards right now. I'm getting by.
I'm just a little dead on my feet, and I *look* tired to boot. Like eye bag city. One of my coworkers, watching me leave work in a cocktail dress to head to volunteer at a charity gala, asked me, "How do you find the time?" And I told her, "I don't have the time. I'm failing. But it'll get better."
It will get better. Because I'm going to say no to more and yes to myself.